UpHapPiNeSs FeELs My HeArT

army alot of things to do.. carry things everyday.. very sian.. today dunno y i so tired today.. even workin oso wanna slp.. think mus be very tired tis few days.. dunno.. jus hope can rest more..

am i not a gd guy anymore? i try to treat everyone very gd, treat my frenz, treat any stranger tat i came across and the one i love very gd.. but it seems i haven do enough or i too gd.. i dunno.. i jus wanna treat everyone very gd.. mayb will kanna bully, i dunno.. but doesn mean i treat ppl gd, they will treat me gd in return? mayb tis sentence is wrong oso.. i dunno..

Mayb ppl will think im flirt cos i got so many "gal" frenz in my friendster.. but i not flirt at all.. those who noe me wil noe, i din go and search for gals to add in friendster, if any gal wanna be frenz, i will jus accept.. or dun say gals, even guys, i will accept. i hope wont give anyone wrong impression tat i always go add gals.. i onli wil go add ppl when the person is whom i noe..

i jus wanna give gd image in everyone heart.. especially the gal i love, i dun wanna spoilt any gd image..

gastric now.. think afternoon eat too much liao.. den dinner din eat at all.. jus now still feel very full leh.. nvm. so wats wrong wid me.. i dunno.. dun wanna care oso.. sick oso nvm.. got cuts on my hand oso nvm ba.. since i always so bad luck. so care much oso no use one

alone or got gf is better? i always ask myself tis qns.. when i got gf, sometime will feel alone better.. when no gf, i wil feel got a gf by my side better.. is everyone feeling the same way? is it alone will make me feel better? is it after army den go into r/s better? now, i lik got no time for ath.. army is making me busy..

still got 5 months plus den i ORD liao.. hope faster come, i wanna faster work and earn more money.. money not enuff for ath liao.. and i feel i getting old.. wanna make more money for marriage, buying cars and emergency use.. feel tat mayb i 30 yrs old, mayb i still dun hav a gf ba.. i dunno..

think i am a bad guy. i dun lik to hurt ppl but always end up hurting ppl.. y lik tat.. how to be a gd guy? am i not gd enough? am i useless?

i dunno wat i wan.. i noe wat i wan, i always cant get.. im confuse.. jus day by day pass, dun wanna care ath.. yester got alot of cuts on my arm by carry heavy things.. to me, is ok.. jus alot of lines on my hand and one on the finger.. xi guan le.. mus take it lik a man..

actualli i no confident in love liao.. i dunno wat im thinkin now.. still sad.. but no one noes..

tis few days very sick.. wed sore throat, thur fever, fri go for my ippt even though i sick.. i purposely dun wan to excuse myself for ippt cos i wanna do.. at least i noe my base line.. at least i noe i can pass or not.. in the end, i fail.. cos of 2.4 run.. think is bcos i 1 yr din run liao.. but im confident next ippt, i will pass.. and hoping for a silver.. cos my other results can get a silver except standing board jump.. short of 9 cm den can get silver grade.. i will work hard for my next ippt.. silver got 100 dollars leh.. mus not give up..

today oso fall sick.. running nose, flu.. whole body aching.. think cos of yester ippt..but din wanna see doc.. go IT show bought a speaker.. noe i shld not waste more money but my speaker spoil le.. haix..

jus hope tat my love life can be better.. my luck for everything seems very low.. wat i hope maybe cant fulfil but i hope god can grant my wish..