UpHapPiNeSs FeELs My HeArT

jus hope u believe me.. god is jus playing me sometime.. use ur heart to feel.. dun use ur eyes to see and ears to listen ..

my whole arm ache and shiver in the morning after the parade.. the csm siao one.. first time fall in w/o the sling for the rifle.. den i hold in my right hand for one plus hours.. after fall out.. my hand very ache and shivering.. cant sms oso.. so keep using my left hand to do thing.. dunno.. i took half day off so now can go home type tis blog.. diao.. jus now go shopping and find someone oso.. buy alot of shirts. think today i crazy..  but nvm.. hand stilll abit ache..

cny is not a happy holiday for me. i hav been moodless for the past few days.. dunno y.. even now.. recently stomach keep pain.. dunno y.. now feeling pain too.. but nvm.. dun realli cares.. pain den pain..

i feel the things i do always wrong.. i dunno y.. feel i realli quite useless.. nvm.. mayb my life shld be lik tat.. shld hav nth in the end. mayb nth left for me is better for me.. haix.. jus no mood

tmr hav to book in liao.. more sian.. cny very sian.. every yr jus go my aunt or uncle house and say happy new yr.. and collect ang baos.. den keep eating the goodies.. so bo liao. yester night my frenz come and play mahjong.. very fun.. haha.. until 2am den they go home..

i dunno y i not happy tis few days.. duno y oso.. feeling sad.. feel tat wat i wan, always cant get.. dunno.. jus feeling down..

cny coming.. hope to collect more ang baos.. love is realli a complicated things

valentine day become a sad day for me again.. dun say le..  nvm.. cny coming.. hope can enjoy.. shld be hav 3 days off after cny but cant take.. wed got field pack inspection for moblisation.. thurs got parade.. think thurs take half day and fri take full day off.. 3 days become taking 1 and a half day off.. but nvm.. lik tat i can store my off.. now shld be hav 3 off left.. good..

hope got lots of hong baos.. cos no money liao.. even hav to buy guard duty from ppl to get extra cash.. see i so poor.. please donate some money to me.. = jus joking

still stress.. thot those ppl onli come to check our store but actualli not.. i still hav to run up and down.. carry tis and tat.. still got so many guard duty on one week.. tmr got guard duty again.. life so stress

new year is coming.. no mood to celebrate now.. thinkin of buying abalone for my parents.. but haven confirm.. wanna be a filial son.. dunno wat to say.. at least not so stress when book out now.

i jus came back from camp. today is sat.. i yester work until 3.30am.. slp for 3 hours onli.. every day work until 9pm plus for the whole week.. now den can book out.. tml night book in again.. so stress.. haix.. if i show temper on anyone, realli sorry.. cos i realli very stress. i dunno wat im doin sometime.. haix.. everyday carry tis and tat.. goin up and down.. every part of my body ache. finger oso pain.. alot of cuts on my hand.. finger ache when move.. haix.. life jus sux..