UpHapPiNeSs FeELs My HeArT

is it so hard to trust someone? y she dun trust me.. haix.. i do so much for u, u cant feel ma? i onli love u.. there is nth between me and her.. i dun lik her at all.. haix.. jus hope u can trust me.. haix.. PLEASE BELIEVE ME.. haix..

today change new hp and new number oso.. who dun hav my number, den email me.. den i tell u.. got k800i.. think is quite a nice hp.. cos i got vouchers and i got max online and cable tv. so i sign up starhub, i will hav discount for mobile, maxonline and cable tv.. hope i wont need to pay so much for all my bills liao.. if not, my army always not enough to use..

wana sell my v3i soon.. who wanna buy, oso can email me..

next week will be a bery busy and stress week.. cannot book out at all.. even weekend.. haix.. hav to prepare the annual stocktake.. feel my life realli very dull. got army things to make me crazy. haix.. not been happy for quite a long time.. haix..

sick liao.. running nose.. think not enough slp.. or mayb think alot of things.. or mayb too stress in the work.. think mus be all.. keep thinking of sad things.. i dunno .. now my mind is very luan.. i dunno.. in army, i very busy about the coming stocktake thing.. keep running here and there.. do tis and tat… finally today im down.. tml hav to go report sick.. even sick, i still hav to work.. tats my character.. dun wan to lian lei bei ren.. dunno.. if work until die, den die.. oso dun realli care..

is it so hard to let someone i love to love me wid her whole heart? is it so hard tat the one i love wont hurt me?

who can ans me? haix.. treasure someone realli so hard.. ppl jus tend to forget wat is cherish the one tat is truly love u. is not easy to find someone who love u and u love him so much.. is realli not easy..

im a guy who dun smoke, din go clubbing at all, seldom drinks, lik to help ppl, lik to encourage ppl, be a listener and care for ppl.. but is it tis kind of ppl, no gals realli will treasure? or even gals dun lik? gals jus prefer bad guys? my type of guys still easy to find? i duno.. mayb everywhere oso got the same type of guys as me.. i noe i not handsome or wat..

y all my past relationship all lik tat.. i always try my best to treat all my gf better.. i onli wan their truly love, the feeling tat i can feel.. but y i cant jus feel it anymore? y love cannot 4eva, y love cannot non stop? haix..

i noe trust is very important..y no one trust me? wat i say was the truth.. i seldom say lies.. or can say in my life, the lies i said are less than 10.. y no one believe wat i said..

y no one understand how i feel? y ppl cant think of the happy memories in the past? past is realli past? it still happen b4 and not nv happen b4.. y ppl always forget the past.. y ppl onli see the things happen now.. is past realli a history?

y i jus sad? y i so easily sad? y always bcos of relationship, i sad.. y? i realli dunno where to fa xie so all type here.. no one to share to.. no one can understand me..

too much y.. cos i jus dunno wat im thinking.. i onli noe my heart feeling pain and hurt.. lonely and always alone.. no one wil noe how i feel, no one will understand.. is all kept inside my heart.. my heart is lying in a pool of blood..

PLEASE TREASURE AND CHERISH THE PERSON U LOVE, B4 U REGRET, B4 IT’S GONE!!

如果你不需要我的时候，

我会让你走，

不过我还是会默默的守候着你，

等你回到我身边，

我不会离开，

我不会走开，

我之会让知道我对你的爱，

是永远不变的爱。

by A poem from myself.. A sad poem.. Mayb to ppl, tis is a lousy poem. but is jus how i feel ba.. Haix.

everything will change in tis world.. even love.. haix.. love is a feeling.. when it gone, will it be back? to me, love is gone, it wont be back.. but to me, if i love someone, i will truly love her alot alot.. wont ever change. but is it a good thing or a bad thing to me? love is always a thing tat bother me.. mayb i jus lack of love.. i dunno.. i always wanna treat the one i love the best..

i jus wan her to love me wid all her heart, love me 4eva.. love me always.. show me her care and love and cherish me.. but y she jus cant cherish me.. am i bad, am i useless.. i dunno.. mayb my love and her love is diff.. love cannot measure by ath, even money.. y am i always get hurt. i noe she oso get hurt by me in the past or even now. i noe i very fan or disturbing… haix.. tis is jus god playing me.. tis is jus my complicated life..

tis yr mayb will be very busy.. is a good yr or a bad yr for me. i still dunno.. hav to see.. but dun think is good.. i can feel the workload for tis yr is crazy.. next week got exercise again.. so FAST.. diao.. hav to be busy liao.. after got stocktake.. aiyo.. think until chinese new yr still will be busy.. hope wont be stress.. i can feel the stress liao..