UpHapPiNeSs FeELs My HeArT

after such a long week.. i can rest le.. so happy.. hope tat the comin taiwan trip can enjoy and relax.. haha..

sore throat for one whole week. still haven recover.. it seems lik the sickness i had in the past come and haunt me again.. last yr i sore throat for one whole week, fever , den recover, den fever again.. on and on lik tat.. even eat or drink oso will pain sometime.. hope tis time wont be the same.. now onli sore throat for one week so i still think is still ok.. i drink alot of water recently cos i realli dun wanna fall sick again.. i ate army doc give de med but no use.. still sore throat.. today den i go see private doc to get more stronger de antibiotics.. hope everything will be fine for me..

next week goin taiwan le.. hope is a enjoyable trip.. haha.. looking forward to it.. hoooray…

alot of things happen.. scald my hand, sore throat, got scolded by sir when is not my fault.. now, i jus feel sad.. tats all.. recently realli very stress.. dun wanna say liao.. jus no mood..

mayb cant go to taiwan liao..noe is all my fault.. always my fault.. dunno.. haix..

recently think im old le.. dunno y.. is 22 yrs old old? in my camp, think im among the oldest yet look the youngest.. diao.. not realli care.. when my age getting older and older, den hav more things to think on.. marriage, work, families.. dotz.. money oso.. diao.. think will be more stress later on..

hurt my knee.. dunno when.. today work until quite late den reach back camp.. reach camp den hard to walk le.. knee pain.. now i at home, block nose.. y always lik tat one.. nvm..

sometime feel tat am i lucky or unlucky.. sometime i feel lucky cos my looks mayb ugly but i born perfectly normal.. better den those unfortunate ppl who are handicap.. but sometime i think i unlucky, y ppl who i trust always lie to me, ppl who i treat very gd will intend to hurt me. when i always alone.. i feel very very lonely and helpless.. feel lik in tis world, there is onli me.. always feel tat no one lik me either..

i noe tat treat ppl gd doesn mean ppl will treat the same to u.. i noe tat u lik someone and doesn mean the person will lik u too.. i noe tat u do things, doesn mean everything u do will be done smoothly.. but wat i face is always negative things.. i always hav to pass one obstacle to another.. feel so tiring.. but i can onli cont to move on.. when i can realli feel happiness??

22 yrs old is it realli old le? i jus wanna finish my NS soon.. find a stable job.. and get married soon.. tat is all i wan.. but i noe in between all tis, the route to the finishing line will nv be smooth for me.. i can onli move on and fight through all the way.. jia you to myself ba..

A ZA A ZA FIGHTING TO ME>>

headache from afternoon till now.. dunno.. cant think of ath to write.. very tired oso..

jus tis few days very tired.. noe until dec, i will be very busy.. hope dec faster come.. den i can hav my holidays liao.. i can relax and take a long break liao.. morning got flu and running nose but now recover liao..

recently weather cold, everyday raining.. everyone who read tis blog, dun fall sick wor.. and floor slippery, everyone walk mus be careful k.. dun fall down k.. is very painful if fall de wor.. later i heart pain.. haha.. take care everyone..

tis few days din blog.. not realli much to say.. jus hope ppl dun irritate me.. i noe wat im doin.. dun ask me to do tis or tat..

now running nose.. very sick.. wanna jus rest.. sick stil let parent scold.. i rather stay in camp.. at least no one will scold me.. i jus wanna rest oso cannot.. dun lik to tell parent i sick. always get scolded when sick.. who wanna sick.. seems no one care.. sick den sick ba..

hope got someone can take care of me when sick.. but haix.. nvm..

yester celebrate Ryn birthday.. din celebrate wid her for the past dunno how many yrs.. cos lost contact ma.. haha.. my pri sch fren look lik a diff person liao.. last time so quiet.. now so fierce.. haha.. joking.. she very playful ba.. hav to celebrate early cos i monday in camp.. cannot celebrate.. buy a present and a slice of cake but cannot say wat present i buy.. is a surprise ba.. or mayb not.. dunno..  cos she haven open yet.. i buy a slice of cake cos i no money to buy.. hav to rem tat my pay is very de less wor.. thot of buyin mineral water cos scare eat the cake liao will cough. rush here and there, still hav to buy ticket at gv and thot i will be late and scare the cake will not cold when i reach.. but in the end, she late.. diao.. no link.. the cake mayb not cold le.. i dunno.. in the end, i gave her the cake and i drink the whole bottle.. diao.. cos she dun drink mineral water de.. diao.. i dunno.. haha..but nvm.. seems the surprise is not a surprise le.. nvm..

after tat watch the oh in ohio.. very lame lo.. think the whole movie, i keep laughin.. dunno la.. she keep saying those no link things.. diao.. ppl not laughing, but we laughing.. lik crazy lik tat.. diao.. laugh lik no ending one.. the movie oso no ending one.. dunno ba.

jus hope yester she lik the presents and enjoy the day ba..