UpHapPiNeSs FeELs My HeArT

today go orchard party world sing.. today the mic still ok.. normally i dun lik orchard one cos their mic weird weird one.. mayb i din sing well today ba.. i dunno.. still nd to improve ba.. after tat, go orchard walk.. but come back wid a lot of perfume smell.. my fren jus lik to anyhow spray perfume on me.. diao.. no link lo.. tis time, i noe how to spray back liao.. always ka jiao me.. let u see my power.. now, my body still got alot of perfume smell lo.. diao.. my hand got all kind of smell le lo..

tml IPPT.. diao.. my wrist still pain.. dunno how.. think will fail pull up ba.. cos mayb no energy to pull myself up cos wrist pain.. pain so long liao.. dunno when will recover.. jus hope will pass ba..

go SMU to study wid frenz.. but i not study.. i bring a empty bag there.. to act as student there one.. cos dunno can go or not.. if not stay at home very bored.. or will think too much and sad.. jus go out better.. after we study awhile, i and my fren go buy drink.. the cashier ask us whether we student there, we say yes.. den she give us discount.. think got student rate ba.. but my other 2 frenz go buy, the aunty wanna see student pass, if not sell usual price.. den my fren bo bian, hav to buy the drink and pay usual price.. haha.. we lucky to get discount drink..

after tat we go orchard walk.. den discussing about chalet thing and goin to KL in dec.. dunno will come true or not or plan for fun one.. dunno.. den my frenz intro gal to my frenz, den seems very complicated.. dunno wat my frenz wanna noe tat gal or wat to do wid tat gal.. actualli wan her to come over to meet us but my other fren dun wan, say wanna go my house watch soccer.. in the end din meet.. but i think my fren will keep contact wid her ba..dunno him.. seems the gal lik my other fren, dunno oso.. not my prob anyway..

all my frenz wanna noe more gals.. think bcos they wanna hav serious relationship liao.. if not too late le.. cos wanna hav a long term one b4 get married ba.. i dunno them.. i oso dunno myself wan wat.. hav been a yr no gf liao.. haix.. i onli noe, wat i wan, will always wont be mine.. haix

mayb no one noe.. i all the while very sad.. in my heart, is always sad.. to other ppl, i mayb seems very happy.. lik the end of the world coming, i still will be smiling.. but who realli noe how i feel? sadness always inside my heart..

no ppl noe im sad so they will do things without noeing hurting me..i already very sad.. so pls dun hurt me more.. i always injured when working.. mayb is a retribution or wat, i dunno.. mayb in the past realli did too much bad things.. i dunno.. now my wrist pain.. carry too much heavy things.. pain for 2 days.. no one noe.. onli myself.. still every week got cut.. how come lik tat.. my leg still pain.. headache now.. is not im weak, i jus always work too much.. i can work until dun eat. den less slp.. i dunno la..

i noe ppl will think i always say all tis is to make ppl ke lian me.. but not i wan ppl to ke lian so i type all tis.. i jus wan to say the truth and say my feelings out here.. say wat happen.. doesn blog is for us to write all tis? if dun write, i realli will be crazy soon.. i cant keep everything in my heart.. if not, realli will burst one day..

ppl, pls dun hurt me k? realli.. if u dun wan to see i change to a diff kind of person, den dun cont hurt me..

kind ppl dun always will get gd return.. i already noe.. wat i wan, will always not be mine..

today whole day at home.. so sian.. watch first 3 episode of Goong.. quite nice show.. din watch tv one cos no time to watch.. haha.. my fren recommend me to watch.. haha.. watch liao realli quite gd.. watch in youtube one.. haha.. will try to watch finish all fast.. haha..

got 89 post le.. think got one yr liao.. the first post is the time when i and my ex goin to break.. still rem the pain and hurt i got.. anyway, today wait for my fren for 1 and a half hour.. diao.. cos his grandpa jus pass away so i din blame him.. see he looks ok but dunno realli ok or not.. diao.. nvm.. today nth much.. jus still no mood cos of the things happen yester.. haix.

i think i had a bad life.. i jus dunno..everything bad always happen to me.. ppl jus lik to hide things from me.. den i found out, i very sad.. y lik tat.. i so easy to lie to? dunno..

hurt myself today again.. my knee got hurt by knockin to a hard object when i jump down from the tonner (army vehicle).. today is a tiring day.. work from mornin until 11pm.. reach home at 12.. got scolded by my sir… no mood already in the morning.. now i more no mood when i found out something.. mayb things not mine, i wan oso no use, is still not mine ba.. is tis wat the god wanna tell me? dunno.. i reach home liao.. goin to bath den see my chest oso bleed.. how come? i dunno.. i always dunno how i got cut or bleed.. mayb blood too much, jus wanna let some out.. i dunno..

sometime, i rather dunno den noe.. noe liao more sad.. ppl pls..

DUN HIDE OR LIE TO ME ANYMORE.. WAN ME TO TRUST U, DEN BE HONEST.. sorry to type in caps.. i realli very no mood..

anyway, my fren fever.. hope u recover soon wor..dun always drink cold drinks.. rem to eat medicine.. jia you for ur work..

today when watch the movie "the prestige".. is a very confused and complicated movie.. but watch until the end, at least i noe wat is it toking about. haha.. anyway, nth much today.. jus lik walk the whole junction 8.. haha.. every shop i visit i think.. haha.. funny la.. or shld i say crazy.. diao.. very tired now.. cant think of ath to write.. stop here ba.. haha..

today go vivo city watch death note.. the show quite long but worth watching.. anyone whose name written in the death note will die of heart attack.. haha.. my frenz pay for my tix first and i dun wan pay him, i told him to write my name in the debt note.. haha.. funny.. den my fren say write gals name in sex note better.. haha.. no link wor.. but funny.. haha.. now all sort of notes coming out.. my name shld be in the ugly note wor..

dunno la.. too much note liao.. think part 2 more interesting.. got 2 death note i think.. shld be showing in dec ba.. haha.. wanna watch.. tat time shld be i clearing leave le.. one whole month holiday.. can find time to enjoy and relax le.. anyway, the vivo city food sell very ex.. my fren buy "bak gut teh" and rice for $6.60. wow.. "chop carrot head" ah.. haha.. so ex.. think their drink shld be 3 times outside.. i walk inside the food court den saw a dunno wat set meal cost $14.80.. haha.. think the food more ex den fastfood wor.. not worth eating there.. so everyone, dun kanna cheated there wor..

GO WATCH "DEATH NOTE"… NICE MOVIE!!!

today whole day working,. from morning work until afternoon.. din eat oso.. see ppl eat, i still hav to work.. haix.. den i see my hand and leg got cut.. but nvm.. dunno y always got cut, i dunno de.. onli when i see the cut, den i noe.. haha.. no matter wat, i will still be strong de,, jia you to myself..

my fren book air tix to bangkok le.. he ask me go, but i think think, he got his own frenz goin.. i onli noe him.. lik tat lik very weird and sian leh.. diao..dunno.. but i hope to travel on dec.. seems the whole asia got problem.. think alot of ppl dun wanna go.. i dunno.. see how ba.. today can go home cos tml cant go home again.. fri mayb got half day off.. haha.. steady.. cos is deepavali celebration.. so gd..