UpHapPiNeSs FeELs My HeArT

i goin crazy soon. army stress. come back still hav to quarrel wid parents. haix. relationship thing oso stress. no one care anyway.. haix.. too much stress make me cant breathe at all liao.. haix

feel tat no one understand me.. the stress i got is no one can imagine one.. no one realli noe how i feel.. haix.. mayb alone 4eva better. haix.

dunno y i always sad.. i not wanting to say i everyday sad. but actualli realli everyday sad.. mayb say the things i sad out in here is wrong. i dunno anyway, i jus sad..

fri realli suay (bad luck).. let ppl suan liao, den after tat, lik ppl snatch away opportunities from me. treat ppl gd, ppl will backstab me, or even suan me.. wat happen to tis world. i always believe tat i treat ppl gd, ppl will treat me gd. i help them, they will help me.. but i find a lot of ppl are selfish. haix. onli think about themselve, din think about how other ppl feel even though they help them b4.. haix.. i jus the unlucky one. i dun wan to tell everything but i jus sad..army realli very stress.. fri i reach home den i noe is fri the 13th.. sian.. den i noe y i so suay tat day.. so bad luck,..,

yester busy den alot of things to do.. hurt my hand again. my finger got cut but dunno wat thing. tis time is 2. same thing. blood comes out. but not as serious as last week.. but still pain. i not scare abot the pain. i still dun care.. anyway, bleed den bleed, hurt den hurt.. think dun care better.. i learn something.. care more, hurt more.. realli.. and another thing.. ppl will onli treasure the person who do for him/her alot when the person leave. haix.. sometime i realli think of erase all my memories.. lik tat i wont be so stress.. so hurt.. till now, i still hiding my feelings.. my frenz think im fine. think i ok.. think i happy.. but in my heart, at home, i jus a hurt.. i think im a loser in relationship.. i believe tat no matter how much u love her, no matter how good u treat her, she will still treat u bad in the end.. haix.. there is no true love.. no 4eva love..

yester realli very tired.. sunday book in at 11.. den work until 12.50am den finish.. den go slp.. 4.30 wake up again and cont do work until 6am.. den go slp until 10am.. haix.. den go for the range thing at pasir leba camp until 11pm den reach back kranji camp.. busy for the whole day. when i book out.. i run to the mrt station to catch the last train. luckily still got last train to amk. if not, i hav to take cab. but in the train, i worry tat there will be no bus to hougang from amk.. i reach amk at 12.20am den i run to the bus stop. wait awhile den saw bus 165. luckily stl got bus. at least din waste money on cab.. haix. but realli a tiring day.. i noe tml will be tired too cos of the container is back from australia. haix. hav to unload and clean everything. sianz

i cut my finger on tues.. now stil haven recover.. still pain.. think quite deep. still bleeding sometime.. nvm.. next week i will be very busy.. haix.. hope next week dun come.. very stress

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